I think I've been internalizing intense negative feelings for too long. At work, I'm in an environment where few if any share any of my viewpoints or interests. In retrospect, I've been a member of very few groups where I did NOT develop some kind of rebellious attitude, for better or for worse. It's just been a trait that I've found follows me around. I voted against Bush, spoke out against the war in front of my Army unit, and happened to unite my fraternity one semester with a rap and split it the next semester with an ill-timed campaign to be an officer. I'm always one of the few people among the people I know who listen to hip hop (you'll be seeing hip hop album reviews in this blog) and one of the few guys I know who's into music more than sports. I've always been told I'm very creative, but I think being creative comes with a neurotic need to be different from any group, which seems to lead to feelings of alienation. I think I need to stop looking for a group to be a part of, and throw my ideas out there and see what kind of group forms around me.
I'm just messing around with this, this is not meant to be a super-serious blog or even an amazing one. It's just meant to be my blog.
An insurgency is defined as:
in⋅sur⋅gen⋅cy [in-sur-juh
n-see]| 1. | the state or condition of being insurgent. |
| 2. | insurrection against an existing government, usually one's own, by a group not recognized as having the status of a belligerent. |
| 3. | rebellion within a group, as by members against leaders |
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